Ryan Francis (former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I recently left Islam after 14 years because I could no longer make myself ignore some of the blatant contradictions with science and morality contained in the Qur'an and Hadith. These issues bothered me for many years but I tried to ignore them or say that Allah knew better and my limited mind couldn't understand everything. Later however I decided that I had to deal with these doubts and either accept Islam's stance on these issues, or reject Islam altogether. I decided I couldn't accept that an apostate should be killed for leaving Islam, that it's alright to marry and have sex with young girls, that it's alright to rape female prisoners of war, that you can beat your wife for not cowering to your authority, and the many other laws that contradict basic morality.
I decided to take these issues to the local Imam and see if he could explain them in a way that makes sense to me. After presenting him with these doubts and being told by him that it was Shaitan putting these doubts in my head because of my weak Imaan, I decided to leave Islam. Since I left Islam I have felt more at peace with myself than I ever felt as a Muslim. No more fear about whether everything I do is in following the Sunnah. I can put my shoes on left foot first and not worry about being punished. I can be myself for the first time and not be trapped in to the almost robotic routines of Islamic daily life. No more fear of punishment for every little mistake I make. No more fear of blazing fire for my family members who didn't accept Islam. No more of looking down on myself as some weak sinning human who needs a God to tell him when and how to do everything; how to wipe myself after going to the restroom, How to put on my shoes, How to brush my Teeth, etc.
I can embrace a fuller Morality that encompasses all people, not just Muslims. I can speak out against Injustice to Women and I have seen many abused Women at the local Mosque. I feel my life is fuller and more complete. All the things I thought I liked about Islam: Helping the poor and the needy, standing against Injustice, etc. I have found in Humanism and without the superstitious baggage. I hope more people will wake up to the cruelties, lies and errors in Islam and make the choice to leave it.
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