ArabSagan (Former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I was born and raised in a Middle-class Moroccan practicing Muslim Family. My belief in Islam was built in school and at home, it was always the brighter side of Islam that was shown to us. I came to know about the bad side of Islam afterwards, regarding women, violence, jihad etc.. but it wasn't at all what made me give up my faith. I was thinking like every Muslim does, if it's God who said that, then it's the right thing to do. But it did shake up my ideas and made me requestion my beliefs.
Until this point, the major thing that made me hold up to my faith was the proclaimed miracles of the Qur'an (scientific and linguistic) that we were taught everywhere, at school, on the internet, at the mosque. I never knew that there were refutations of the miracles, and also every time I had doubts about the Qur'an, I googled miracles of the Qur'an and all the sites that appear on the first page are propaganda that took out my doubts. But after watching Neil degrasse's Cosmos, I've decided to seriously focus on the subject.
I've started to study history of all religions not only the Abrahamic religions. When you live in an Islamic country, you have the perspective of the world's population that the world is mainly of Muslims (even if Muslim are 23% of the world) and the rest are people of the book, few Hindu polytheists and a few hundred atheists and I thought (as I was taught at school) that in Islam even non Muslims aren't damned to hell, I was never told that non Muslims (more than 75% of the world's population} were damned to hell in Islam. Breaking that false view was a big step.
Then I started analyzing the refutations of the miracles of the Qur'an. I was searching in French and the content I was finding was really poor. Afterwards I permitted my self for the first time to google "scientific errors of the quran" ( Because as a Muslim even thinking about that felt like a sin), I found out the long WikiIslam page that gave me a lot of insight for my research. I've spent a long time reading both sides of the claims, apologetics and counter apologetics to finally decide that Islam was a man made religion. Now I define myself as an agnostic since I believe that we have no evidence that a supreme being exists or doesn't exist. My parents and friends still do not know about my new believes and I won't tell them until I'm financially self-sufficient.
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