Can't tell (former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I've grown up in a conservative family, and was taught all about the religion since childhood. During my teen years, when everyone else was partying and having fun, I used to be apprehensive for religious reasons. Sure, I've always been open-minded when it came to certain things, but I thought those were lines I shouldn't across. Until I started using my head one day.
I don't know what got me to dig into the religion at first, but honestly, I've never trusted a religious scholar before. That could be a major reason behind my curiosity, I just needed a little nudge I guess. I've always been waiting for a day when I'd meet a scholar open-minded enough that would tell me what Muhammad did in his life isn't true or at least give me real justifications, somehow. or maybe what I've learned about Islam's been seriously misinterpreted. I just couldn't see myself accepting the version of Islam my family believes in, or the rest of the Muslim population, for that matter. That day never came.
I later started browsing through the Internet, in an attempt to relieve myself of these doubts. I first ran into those who call themselves "progressive Muslims". They didn't sound as extreme as the rest do. I liked that at first, but I then realized they didn't quite make much sense, considering the fact that I'm fluent in both English and Arabic, and have been reading the Quran - that clearly showed how misguided they are. It was at that moment that I lost hope. Islam is a very hypocritical religion. Islam is NOT a religion of peace, nor does it provide all humans with equal rights. It is also fatally flawed, for the following reasons:
- It allows slavery
- It advocates imperialism (how else do you think it spread all the way to Turkey, Spain, North Africa, the fertile crescent, Indonesia, etc? Self-defense? I think not.)
- It treats women as second-class citizens.
- Its loaded with contradictions, such as "there is no compulsion in religion", yet people through out history have had their heads chopped off for apostasy.
- Contradictions in the concept of "Allah" itself. (eg: All-merciful, All-good, yet cunning, vengeful and ultra harsh punisher)
- Polygamy.
- The fact that Muhammed married ELEVEN wives, while everyone else gets to marry four, apparently because its a "prophetic characteristic" to fuck unlimited number of the most beautiful women of Arabia.
- Aisha's ordeal. Screwing a 9 year old because "Allah" wills it freaked the hell out of me, and all justifications that had been offered to me are very weak and unconvincing.
- I realized the Quran is nothing more than a book of threats. If its not threats, then its these infantile descriptions of a materialistic "heaven" to lure more clueless followers.
- Tons of hadeeths showing how creepy life under an Islamic rule is.
- Chopping off limbs of thieves and murdering homo-sexual. I'm not gay, but the thought that a certain group of people deserve to die for having a different sexual orientation is a very sick and primitive one.
I can go on forever with this. I'm a closet atheist now, I really cant go out there and announce my beliefs to anyone. Don't wanna get death threats for merely holding different views on life, I'll just try and live peacefully until I can manage to immigrate to the free world one day.
PS: Most other religions shackle the mind from free-thinking all the same. Just wanted to clarify that point.
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