ExMuslimAli (former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I started to doubt islam when I was around 12/13 and I would always feel very guilty whenever I thought about girls or sex. So I tried to stop myself from doing it by reading the Quran etc, I had read the full translation of Quran and its Tafsir by the time I was 12/13. But fortunately I also read a lot of other books and I knew about sex in other species and how all species have sex, not just humans.
Then one day I asked myself why god would want me to lower my eyes on seeing girls or not think about sex, etc. Because sex is a physical need very similar to hunger, thirst, and other physical needs. Secondly, the hormones produced in your body especially at the age of 12/13 are responsible for sexual thoughts in all teenage boys and girls. If god had put in these mechanisms in my body and given me this biological urge for sex, why would he want me to not think about sex? That felt very irrational to me.
When I acknowledged one irrational belief of Islam, I opened the way to acknowledging many other such beliefs. For example, why women are made to cover up and not men, mohammed having sex with a 9 year old when he was 58-59, the violent verses of the quran asking for non-muslims to be killed, and how Islam had been spread in most countries: by occupation and force.
By the time I was 17-18 I was pretty much a muslim in name only, I still believed in allah and mohammed and didn't have alcohol and etc, only for the fear of hell but didn't believe in much of the rest, I was confused but the fear was keeping me in Islam. I decided that if I found irrefutable proof that Islam was not true, such as contradictions or mistakes in Quran, I would leave for real.
Fortunately I found this proof, first in the form of evolution. There's overwhelming proof in the form of fossils and genetic evidence that humans have evolved from other animals, not sent in the form of Adam and Eve, as Islam claims.
Later I also found tons of contradictory verses in the Quran.
I have to say I'm very happy after leaving Islam. Islam is very much like a prison for soul. You can't do so many things: watching T.V., listening to music, dancing, drinking, drawing, painting, having sex, having a gf/bf, becoming friends with someone of the opposite sex, so many restrictions. I'm now free to wear whatever I want, make friends with whomever, and use my internal moral system rather than a 1400 year old book to tell me what's right or wrong.
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