Farhana (former Muslim)
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My Testimony of Leaving Islam
It’s a long story revolving around almost 11 years of my life, but it was a gradual process to come up with the conclusion that I am an absolute Atheist. My mind was right from the start very intriguing and full of questions but I couldn’t find proper guidance or opportunity to express myself in right manner for so long.
I admit that my first inspiration was my uncle who is a non believer in religion but believer in god. I can say that I started exchanging ideas and thinking with him initially and my mind took courage from him to say and to analyze things in much rational and logical perspective than before. I am thankful to him. Later the process started like anything as never ending and I became an agnostic.
But then again I was confused with few things. I couldn’t justify nor deny the issue of God but again thanks to one of my colleague, who was an atheist one day I was talking to him and I was trying to justify god beside the fact that I myself was confused about it he asked me can you prove God’s presence. I had no answer but again I was not ready to admit that what he is asking I cannot prove that he said listen how can you believe in something which you cannot prove even? and which is so blind in nature? that was the time which clicked my mind internally and when I came back home.
I thought about it and I reached to the conclusion that yes he was right there are no solid reasons and grounds of believing something which is so unknown in its existence which is so hidden and which is forever hidden and which needs praising from his own created world humanity and living beings how illogical is this so then once again process started and I became an atheist and now I believe that I am really a free person and I am enjoying freedom of thought which is a real freedom in life every other thing comes later and start from the thinking and ideas first and once can implement them when one is free to think about them in certain ways so I feel myself a real free person in this world for whom life is mystery up till now and for whom life is precious till one is alive so spend freely without any hesitations any limitations made of your own mind and reservations.
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