Kenmirzz (former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
Hi everybody, I am Han, mix heritage (Persian, Turkish, Mongols, etc). I decided to leave Islam, the cult of hate and oppression. I was a practicing Muslim, who used to pray five times a day, fast, and do all the necessary Islamic rituals that make me a Muslim, at least, though not in the fundamentalist way. Being born into not so religious family, my siblings and parents are not really practicing Muslims themselves. However, Islam is dear to them and that is their 'truth'.
Though I am not an Arab, I learned to read the Quran in Arabic and able to read it fluently with Tajwid though I am not a hafiz. Since my childhood, I liked to read books on Islam and will spend my time in bookshops and libraries browsing through Islamic literatures to deepen my knowledge on it. When I was a teenager, my preferences are those books that talk about doomsday, grave, and the advent of dajjal. However, during my twenties, upon entering university, I switched my preference to comparative religions, comparative sects, etc. I watched the debates of Ahmed Deedat with the christians and greatly impressed by his eloquence, knowledge and quick wittedness in tackling the subject matter at hand. I thought that I am on the 'safe' side, the truth is on me. In addition, I admired Dr. Zakir Naik and his debates with non-Muslims was also attracted me.
Life went on as usual; I never had to think of anything bad about Islam or its founder. The moment I read about the atrocious acts of Muslims, I subscribed that to his or her own ignorance of Islam. The common respond in my mind or in discussion is: "they are not following true Islam, if they follow, none of these things will happen." (This is how a Muslim is programmed and brainwash.)
Nevertheless, quite accidentally, I came to know of the disturbing concubinage in Islam. That being; besides the allowance of 4 wives Muslim men can have intercourse with slave girls outside wedlock. It was very irritating to me initially but I discarded this as 'satanic whisper' to drive me out of Islam. Eventually I managed to grab the hadith books Bukhari and Muslim and started reading it quite impatiently. One more thing that bewildered me again is the marriage of the prophet with 6 year old Ayesha who was still playing with dolls and swings with her childhood friends. I read the details on how she was grabbed and decorated to be delivered to the prophet. I wondered how I can accept all these despicable stuffs. No normal human will let their beloved 6 or 9 year old daughter to be married at such young age to an old man of 54 year old. There must something wrong here. Can the religion I believe in to be the embodiment of truth be a lie, a systematic lie, and hoax of the highest degree? I was quite taken aback at this discovery and a mature, civilized, and normal person cannot ever accept all these immoral attitudes.
I began to have doubts in my mind after going through the Sahih Bukhari and Muslims hadiths and other authentic sources of Islam. Many doubts start to gleam upon me. What is it we Muslims are pointing out the immorality of West, the baseness of their cultures, etc but when it comes to this pedophilic conduct of our prophet, we sugarcoat it, trying to mask it as much as possible..!!! I realized that I was on the wrong path. My prayer became gradually curtailed shorter and shorter. Soon I stopped it altogether. Then I visited the FFI site and read some of the charges by Ali Sina, they are all well documented. Thus, I decided on November 2008 to leave Islam. However, I have to keep it secret from my family because I don’t want put my life and safety at stake.
This is my testimony, I am a freethinker now but I still believe in God and pray to Him everyday in my own way. I believe that He is far from whatever religions describe him as. I don’t believe in religion but I believe in God.
Humanity is but one family.
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