Peace Love Happiness (Former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I was raised as a secular Muslim in a Muslim nation. I come from a very prominent family and do not feel safe to say where I am from. My family has been nothing but supportive to me all of my life. My father and grandfather were schooled in UK and Switzerland and are secular Muslims. They don't really follow Islam and believe that Islam should be something like Christianity or Judaism in the West is a more private and non imposed religion on the world. My journey out of Islam started when I was 8 years old. I was living in my home nation at that time and I heard on the news that the Netherlands had legalized same sex marriage. I remember feeling electrified and full of total happiness and joy... as I always believed love is love and Allah is love. I was raised that Allah is love. I was raised basically as a westerner which made me very out of touch with around 80% of my nations population. My nations lower classes are heavily Islamic and influenced by Salafi/Wahabi Islam and the upper classes tend to be very westernized comparatively.
I never was raised to believe Islam or religion is compulsory or even that Allah demands us to follow his religions as he loves us all and knows our hearts and forgives us if we are good hearted. My love of art and music also influenced my leaving Islam as even at a young age I was educated highly and have always academically excelled. I still do visit my home nation from time to time and spend part of the year there with my family and close friends who do totally accept me as I am. When I finally told my parents of my leaving Islam for good and begged to be sent to live in Europe or the United States my father bought me my own penthouse in Monaco and a home in the United States to spend most of my time at.
Coming from a high ranking family also in my nation I was mostly immune to being harassed for not being religious as well nobody would dare to arrest a member of my family. I came to hate Islam over time though and by the time I was 13 I was secretly becoming suicidal and wished to die rather then live in my nation. My mother realized and ensured me of her love to me no matter what and that she did not think anything bad of me whatsoever. And she also said my father also did not nor did my grandparents or anybody in our family. That they loved me just the same. I at that point decided to refuse to go to mosque and to fast and pray anymore. And then I began to realize the total hatred that the general population in my nation felt to me. I was told I am not a real citizen of my nation, that I am kuffar and deserve to die. And I had to transfer to a private school where the students were mostly from the West. I fit in well there and made many friends who accepted me fully as I am. And I began to realize the truth about The Quran. That the Quran is not a good religious book. That if Allah really had told Mohammed the truth and the truth never changed... then how could Mohammed have married Aisha when she was only a 9 year old or 8 year old child. And even worse how could he have actually had relations with her. That was totally sickening to me. Also sickening to me was the practice in my nation of how many older men and teens would go after younger teens my age(I was 13 and 14 at this time) sexually and abuse us. And how they were totally immune to punishment as nobody would dare to report this.
I was only saved by my family and their high position in society in my nation. Everyday when I think of the average child in my nation my heart breaks a little more. I can't bear to realize how they are taught to hate Jews and Christians and atheists and agnostic and gay and lesbian people. Also when I was 8 911 happened, and I saw people my age dancing in the streets about the innocent American and Non Muslim life killed. I was horrified and could not believe how this was acceptable. Even when I was 18 after Osama Bin Laden was killed I was visiting my home nation and someone who was a boy about my age came up to me and cursed the West for Killing Osama Bin Laden when he was just a true Muslim and was defending the rights of Muslims. I was like what!! HE did not defend anybody!!! He is a murderer!!! The only reason you can't see this is that your prophet is a murderer and a pedophile too!! How could it be OK to murder anybody for any reason when these people are Allahs creations. I know if Allah exists he created these people and actually my prayers and meditation has taught me Allah does exist. But that Islam is just not a true religion in any sense of the form. Nor is any religion true. Religion is just a tool to control people. I actually lost it and told this boy that and he physically attacked me and I was lucky to escape from him in good shape. I was afraid for my safety for the entire time I spend remaning in my home nation until leaving. It breaks my heart so very much that my nation is being used by religion in this way. I love my nation very much. I love my family very much. I have decided that I however will probably not return to my nation very often. I can not bear the possibility of publicly humiliation of my family when they protected me so much.
I apologize for leaving such a long story too but I want to say to anybody who reads this... no matter who you are... gay or straight or bisexual or atheist or agnostic or Pagan or Buddhist or Christian or Jew or anything else in between that Allah loves you. And that I love you... even if I never meet you. To anybody in my nation who feels like me... stay strong. I knew by age 13 I would rather die then be a Muslim ever again. Don't let anybody take your freedom from you no matter what.
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