Sana (former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I happened to visit sites like faith freedom & Islam review recently. I’ve been a non practicing Muslim for quite some time as I believe that this religion is a bundle of horror.
I was born in a very conservative Muslim family in the Southern part of India. I had doubts about my religion ever since I was a child. In the madrassa (religious school) when I raised questions, the Mullahs warned me by saying that I wasn’t supposed to have doubts & question it. I literally witnessed Mullahs sexually molesting physically grown girls in the Madrassas. In my small mind I always had questions: If these Mullahs who teach us the Holy Book of the Quran & its teachings of horrible punishments, hellfire etc. could do such sin, did Allah really exist?. I felt Islam always forbade us everything - even small things and forbade happiness. I was expelled from the madrassa because I took part in my School Days’ Singing & Dance program. As per Islam it was haram. I questioned when my family forbade me from befriending non-Muslims.
I was forced to cover my head which I disliked. As I grew up, I saw women being oppressed and living under the shadow of men. Women in Islam were always under a man’s custody. Until the parents marry them off, they are under father’s or brother’s custody, through marriage they handed over it to husband and it goes on. They never know their worth. Women never enjoyed the free air outside home & the beauty of nature. They have to cover themselves when they are out. I felt that there is lots & lots of injustice in this religion, which one couldn’t even question openly. This religion was never compassionate. It always instilled terror of punishment, threats & hellfire.
As I grew up I was always seeking the truth. I wanted to find the true God of love & compassion. I got a Bible from my good Christian friends. I read a few chapters. I never felt fear while reading, whereas I did when I ever read the Quran. I’m still exploring and seeking the truth. I believe in Humanity. I wish this religion & any other religion which teach hatred, destruction were abolished. I wish Muslim people realize this. I know since I’m living in the Middle East, if I open up, my life would be in danger.
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