Syed Muhammed Mustafa Ali (Former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
The fact of the matter is that when I look back on my life I can see that I never was a Muslim. Since there is no one definition of the word Muslim, I can safely say there never was no Muslim around me. I was scared shitless from my parents from how horrible the punishment will be if I left Islam as a kid, which was told by their parents and so I was a Muslim but ever since a kid I was a rebellious one. I used to ask question in a middle of religious ceremonies that why God is not present etc, for which I used to get severe punishment from my parents for asking such questions. The fact is I was scared of even saying that I will leave Islam because of the fear instilled in me. In fact up til the age of 28, whenever anything went wrong I used to look up at the sky and say "f*** you God" but at the same time look back up again and say "I am sorry I didn't mean it". But soon I started to realize how stupid I looked when I was talking to, well nobody. No reply ever came to me, no one ever talked back to me, and then I started to look a little closer and the picture started to get clearer that THERE IS NO ONE UP THERE.
It seems more like governments around the globe need a way to control people, incite them to fight and die so they can control the population, sell their weapons and make loads of money while doing horrendous crimes against humanity and to do all this they need a "God". Any god will do the job as long as he/she/they have extreme super powers (which no God ever uses in front of anybody) and they have extreme sick ways of punishing people (which by the way while reading Quran it seems like a sadist porn novel) and rewarding them with a heaven which no one knows what or how it looks like (definition of heaven varies from "no one could imagine", to "lots of women, booze and all the stuff").
Islam is no different than other made-up religions but it certainly is the sickest of all the religions it seems (I could be wrong on that since Buddhists burn Muslims alive in the name of their God). One of the reasons for me to leave Islam was the extreme obedience which it requires from its followers and if not given it allows parents to go as far as to kill their own children (although not mentioned in Quran, people still do that).
Did I suffer after leaving Islam? Yes I did but so much is happening in this world as I am writing this that complaining about how my wife left me, my family, except my mother and an aunt, disowned me seems very trivial and not worth while. All my efforts are made to promote rational thinking with my students (I am a teacher by profession). I know for a fact that telling someone who devoted their whole life and not just their life but every one they know to a folly is completely useless. They are not going to just stand up and say yes I am right. In fact if they think rationally I have no need to prove them wrong in the first place. Burden of proof is on them and so I have no reason to go to someone and say your religion sucks. Instead a better solution is to focus on where problem lies and that is to correct our children's future and let them think rationally and hope they will not fall into the same trap as I fell once when I was a kid.
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