TurkicTengrist (Former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
I was born in a devout Muslim family from central Turkey which is an area that mostly consists of villages and semi nomadic Turk tribes. It was us Turks that brought Islam to the region. I was lucky to be born in Australia, a true secular country rather than Turkey which is only secular on paper. From a very young age I had doubts that God even existed. I actually thought it was a trick parents taught their kids so they can be good like Santa Claus and the Easter bunny lol. When I grew up I made the discovery it wasn't a joke and they actually believed in it. I was forced to go the mosque and attend Islamic classes. I became devout, though whenever I questioned my parents threatened me said Allah will punish me lol. I used to hate Allah for that. How can he be so cruel and oppressive? Whenever I asked questions in class or home I was told "don't question the will of Allah". In Islamic class they even told me angels created rain by spreading their wings.
The truth is never in my heart did I ever truly believe in Islam or heaven or any of the prophets especially Jesus and Moses. I despised Mohamed. In class we were taught that he had a six year old wife. My teacher said it was normal at the time so it was normal to rape a six year old girl and Allah allowed this bulls**t. As I got into high school I began to despise Islam but at the same time I was scared of Allah and the punishment of hell. Though I hated how Islam only spread Arab culture, language, customs, culture, clothing and even my damn name was a full on Arab name even though I'm a Turk.
Leaving Islam was not instant it was a slow process that was helped through many incidents. I had an Arab friend. From him I realized Islam was just used to promote Arab imperialism. The world is a big place. Why cause benefits only in the Middle East? I read the Quran and found many contradictions and errors, historical, scientific as well as grammatical. All the imams I spoke to always blamed the translation. Honestly why choose Arabic then? lol. I became very fond of my own history and pre-Islamic Turk culture which was far greater in comparison to the Arabised Turkish culture now. I also learned about evolution in class; the real evolution which is natural selection not the 'man from monkey' crap that religious people use as propaganda against science. When I told my family they instantly denied it and claimed evolution is false despite knowing nothing about it. How ignorant of them like most Muslims.
Eventually by 15 or close to 16, I decided to leave Islam and researched why Islam is false to show to my family so they could join me. This was a huge mistake. They denied everything despite evidence that Islam and all religions are man-made. And Islam just carries pre-Islamic traditions to further benefit Arab men. They beat me and forced me to go back. My sister thought it was a phase. They brought all these imams and Muslim clerics. I proved them all wrong one by one with facts. Most threatened me with hell and ignored everything I said. A few actually respected my belief but then spouted bullshit and claimed Islam had science too. Today my parents are still trying to force me into Islam.
If God created humans with brains why would he force them to worship him? A perfect being would neither require nor desire worship.
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