Voice in the Wind (Former Muslim)
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Testimony of Leaving Islam
It's funny, how you see the world as a pre-teen kid. You feel curiosity about anything, you ask your parents, teachers, basically anyone older and that's that - you accept that answer as solid fact. Then when you ask different people the same question and . . . they give you different answers: you go on to ask them about this discrepancy and they just give you a wishy-washy thing to appease you. You soon begin to realize there's a world outside that, a world that is so much at mercy to the sway of opinions and 'conviction'.
Though I wasn't the most devout of muslims in my early teens, I would perceive a 'calm', when I would recite the Koran or offer prayers. I believed there was something in this that made it all worthwhile. Then, I truly started to perceive the world as I grew. For every topic, there were so many voices. For every incident, there were so many perceived agendas. For every report, there were so many interpretations. I was confused how my faith truly interacted with it all.
My dad prays once in awhile and has of a more casual, laid-back attitude towards this stuff, while my mom is rather devout, but of very simple character. They're both professionals at what they do.
It started with the smaller stuff, like Islam's ideas on Music and Art for example. Apparently sculptures and paintings are just forms of idolatry and are therefore evil. Apostasy, a freedom of speech and faith . . . is evil. Women are to cover themselves because out in the open, they are only objects of lust, not individual characters themselves, with a world inside them. In fact, women shouldn't have voices, they're inferior, only existing to serve as virtually 'domestic livestock'. Music is tempting and can sway one's mind from the the 'Almighty'.
Bangladesh, in general isn't as extremist as some of those other 'Muslim Countries'. In fact the place is much more liberal, but yes, plagued with more than a generous share of radicals nowadays in a very unstable political climate. So over time, I started feeling a gap, on one side, this 'Liberal' form of 'faith' that my family somehow went with and the other, the darker, real side of Islam that I would find out over time - the beating of women and wives, persecution of apostates, the contradictions, the absurd condemnation, the persecution, the bloodthirst and hate, it's constant justification of everything to be done as God's divine duty. I read the Koran, and I found no real peace, proof or justification, but a device filled with contradiction, lies from a Prophet, a submissive brainwash mechanism to be preached and used to subjugate the masses for an agenda of a bygone century about 1300-1400 centuries ago.
Most self-proclaimed "Liberals" don't know any of this and if you show it to their face, will be in a form of disgust-induced denial(I speak of the real tales of the Prophet that most people are taught from childhood to follow in just about everything) and just won't be able to accept or come to terms with any of it. It is astonishing that people are still taught to believe that Islam is a religion of 'Peace' while so many take up arms to fight for it who although yes, you can call 'extremists' are still doing something that's written in the book and ordered by the Prophet.
I came to the decision that this religion was nothing more of a chokehold on my life and a machine fueled by rage with the intention of destroying freedom in the world.
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